I am in a position that I have no idea what to think anymore...I know that certain people hate me...but do you honestly think that I care? NOT REALLY...But in reality is a different story (you see I can tend to be very emotional sometimes)
But here's to a great week to you! Hope that I can maintain sanity and all that cool stuff...I am thinking that I can but we will see!
So, here's me saying that I am not going to say anymore about that just yet...But until next time...I wanted to say "HI" and I went to leave a few comments on blogs...Now I have got to learn how to do stuff other than write on here! Yes I will learn it yet...Take care everyone!

Love,

~Joy~

PRETTY NICE...

Well, the girls had their last game of the season (other than state tournaments that is!) and they won again! 4-0 and guess what...Didja guess yet???? Yeah, my sister, the one and only, made her first assist in the first goal and that was only like a minute or so into the game. And all this after last nights' drama that happened with her. See whenever the other team makes a goal (remember this is Hockey after all) and she is on the ice, she thinks that it is her fault and then gets upset over it. So, last night the coaches (one whom is my boss the other is her best friends' dad) were trying to talk to her about what was wrong and all that she would say is that she had a headache or didn't feel good. So, over comes my boss and tells me that I need to figure out what is wrong, since he knows that she will tell me things that she won't tell her parents. But then the other coach talks to his daughter and finds out what is wrong, so he tells me what it is all about and so then I talked to both coaches and tell them that I will talk to her. But she and I decide that we are going to go and get some Ice Cream after the game and that is when she tells me why she thought that it was her fault, and I tell her exactly what the coaches say...It is no one's fault it happens. Good logic I think, and these guys are both really great coaches I have to say.
But enough about that. Tomorrow my family is going to Fargo for a volleyball clinic that my sister has to attend. She started Junior Olympic Volleyball last week and this is mandatory that they all attend. Nice...Having the house to myself for the day! *Excited*
Until next time...Thanks for reading my babble...The weekend is not all that bad...Used to having to work all weekend and relaxing...but I have yet to do that this weekend...Bad sign I think...
Until next time...
With lotz o' love (LOL)
~Joy~

HAPPY WEEKEND TO YOU ALL!!!!!!

That's about all for now...I am totally work-free for the weekend BUT I have a lot to do yet...Tonight was just the beginning and tomorrow it continues...between Hockey, Basketball and of course I have to run to Fergus to get a few things I am out of here then. On Sunday is a daytrip to Fargo for a volleyball clinic that my sister has to attend and I am going to go and sit on my butt at the mall!
I thought of something tonight...I think that I am over my "Summer Crush" as I like to call him. If you are reading this I would like to say 1 thing to you: If there is still that interest there...I am leaving it up to you to make the first move this time...I have tried several times and you do not seem to take hints or suggestions very well...so this time I leave it to you...
But I got that off of my chest I need to run now. Girls won their game tonight! 2-1 in OVERTIME that is! Pure luck is that is called...Tomorrow is their last game and then off to state in 2 (short) weeks! That is the week that I am trying to convince my boss that I need a 3 day weekend but I am thinking that it isn't working yet...especially since we have 2 new people start training that week. O-well it was worth a shot at least. I will see when the schedule is officially posted!
Until next time...HAPPY WEEKEND TO YOU ALL!!!!!!
With love,

~Joy~

Just received this in my mail box today and I think that it is so true that in your daily life you get busy and keep meaning to call that friend but run out of time...Here it is courtesy of my aunt...
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end, Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face, For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well, As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped
make you the person that you are today.

Someone help me! Lately I have been sooo tired and exhausted and no matter how much I sleep it can never be enough. Oh yeah cold also, but that I can write off to the strange weather that we are having right now. But I know that I am going to have to get the iron tested AGAIN! It was just done at my physical and it was teetering right on the edge.
Well, enough about that...that is the main reason that I have not been here much lately. Always sleeping or working it seems. But that is ok sometimes work is actually fun. Just not lately since someone (he will remain nameless) spilled the beans about the "surprise" party and I was blamed for it. So now both her and her girlfriend are mad at me...Well last night I would not say 1 word to them. Talked to everyone else, and if I needed to talk to them it was through someone else. It's not that I am mad at them it's just that if she even suspected that it was me, then I think that she should have talked to me instead of accusing right away since the guy that did it even took the blame and felt really bad, but she (girlfriend) won't listen to anyone. It's my fault and that's what she wants to believe. SCREW HER!!! (Ok so sorry about that it's just that we were friends for so many years)
But I think that I am going to go and nap now! (Scary thought since it is like 4:30 P.M. here and I slept 9 hours last night!)
Nothing too exciting but I needed to get that story/drama off my chest. Everyone at work knows about it now, and that he took the fault.
But I am going to nap now. Talk to you all later!
Love,

~Joy~

To those of you that have read this on MSN I am sorry but I wanted to put this on here...Since I feel in that kind of mood tonight...

Angry...
I am realizing that I am pretty much "shunned" from my father's side of the family. Ok a little more info on that... My dad passed away 17 1/2 years ago, in July 1988, when I had just turned 13. Then I really had contact with some of the aunts and uncles for a long time, and then one day it seemed as if they had disappeared. I sent them all announcements when I graduated and I received a card from 1 cousin. I mean that was so cool to hear from her, but you know where were all the others at? Then in 1994 (Feburary) I find out that my Grandpa passed away 19 months earlier and no one felt the need to tell me! I mean come on he was my grandfather after all, don't I deserve the right to know? The only reason that I actually found out is through my lawyer that dealt with all the estate stuff since I was a minor at the time of my father's death.
Ok now fast forward to the fall of 2004. My aunt (mom's sis) moves to Devils Lake area, and I know for a fact that one uncle is out there, so I thought "hey what the heck...I will call and see how he is doing." BIG MISTAKE!!! I talked to him for about 20 minutes and then hung up the phone in tears because of the fact that he is not even saying anything to me, and then tells me that he has to get ready for work. Yeah right, since this was on a Saturday afternoon, and he works overnights, Sunday-Thursday. Then I decide to send out Christmas cards and the only addresses that I have are his and the one sister in the family. I think that it was another BIG MISTAKE on my behalf. But you know that I am all grown up now, and I am leading a good life, and I am one of those people that others kind of call a "goodie goodie" I think sometimes. I mean that because I am the type of person that I know a lot of people around here, I work at a job where everyone comes in and they know what you did last night, and many people around here are connected to my family in some sense, either through grandmother, step-dad or an aunt/uncle. I have a bachelors degree in Business Management with minors in Accounting/Marketing/Spanish. (Yeah I was the real brainiac in college) But yet I want to go back to school to get a degree in Communications because then I feel that I can make more of a career move if that is what I want to do. I work a lot but yet still have the time to hang out with friends, work out in the gym, spend time with the family, or just go outside and have some fun playing. But, sometimes though I do wonder what life would be like if I were still connected to my dad's family. I am not too sure actually because I know that somewhere I will meet up with them again and I really don't know what I would ever do or say to them since I feel so alienated right now. It is kind of sad to think that they will never be there to see me get married, have kids, or grow old, and major life changes that occur. My mom and I are real close as are my sister and I, but you know it is not the same as having your father there to experience the firsts that occur. (And you all know what I mean by that one!) But I know one thing for sure is that this coming summer I plan to drive out to my father's hometown and go to the cemetary and to where the farm used to be at. I am thinking that it will be a pretty emotional day for me, but I also believe that it may bring some closure that I have kept bottled up this long and I need to get out of me. I would like to only ask one question though first: "Why did you forget about his only child?" Maybe someday I will get the answer to that question but I am not going to expect it anytime soon, so I guess that maybe writing on here about it is making me feel a lot better about the situation that I am with my family. That is why I am so grateful that my mom and I are close and all the family is close also, even though we may have a lot of distances between us, we still talk all the time and emails are great! So, with that I am going to leave now! I hope that I didn't bore you all too much, but sorry I needed to get that off my chest now. Any ideas or suggestions I am listening, but I think that I have shed enough tears over the whole situation now. I know one thing that is certain and that is: I love my dad with all my heart and I miss him ever waking moment of my life and I think about all the good times that I have had, and all the losses that I have dealt with since he died.

Totally remember that I hate MSN! Still slow and unresponsive after all this time even!~

Hi!
It is sooo cold here....The wind chill is about -40 degrees right now! Yeah too cold to be outside so I figured that I would stay in the house and stay warm! :)
Just thought that I would say I hope that you all have a great weekend! Not to sure how mine will be yet...so I figure that can not be a good sign can it...I am supposed to go to a birthday party tomorrow night, BUT that is complicated and boring but I am not going to it now. I am thinking that her mother will kill me but it is just the logics behind why I am not going. I know why as does the birthday girl and her friend that had a fit at me the other night do, but not her mother and she is wanting all of us to come. And then those of us who are over 21 were supposed to go out afterwards so I think that I am going to tell them that I do not want to go out. I guess that we will see!
OH those darn migraines have been getting the better of me again! It has been like 6 months sicne my last one, and all of the sudden I am getting them AGAIN! That's not kule :(
Ok so it was a long day at work yesterday and I am going to go nap now. Then I need to get my car into the mechanics to get a tire fixed. Since it is so cold here it is going low all the time and I am not happy!
See you in a few days!

~Joy~

Happy Belated Valentine's Day to everyone! Mine wasn't all that bad considering the fact that I don't have anyone "special" to spend it with. A friend was having a nice dinner and my sister and I went over there...Originally I went over to just drop off a cookie sheet for her to bake stuff on...but she invited us to stay and since sister and I were going to go out for supper anyways we decided to stay there! Yum Yum!
But since I am crabby tonight I may leave it there for now! Snotty little brats finally got the best of me tonight and since she and I work together tomorrow she is in for a wake up call from my attitiude tomorrow.
More tomorrow though. Happy day to you all!!!!!
-Sincerely-

~Joy~

Hey there~
Totally awesome here...I was just kicking back and relaxing and then I thought that I would get the car out of that d*** snowbank! It came out! *excited*
Oh I went to a pancake dinner that was put on by a local boyscout troop...they were so good! And then to top off the entire day...*my sister got her permit today!* Kinda Scared now! She already wanted to drive me somewhere...Um yeah when you sedate me with lots and lots of drugs! No seriously...I will let her drive sometime, just not tonight since we were not going to the same place after the pancake dinner was over.
I am off for now...In the middle of a good conversation now. I love MSN for one thing only...CHAT!!!!
Until next time

~Joy~

I am definitely having fun with this one...So about my day...well I had to work all day and then there is all this confusion about tomorrow amongst people that I am totally lost now! It is a weird situation that is happening right now. I am not even sure what is going on BUT it is late now and I figure that I will hear all about it tomorrow!
Friday night there is a going away party for a co-worker but I have to work late that night, SO I think that I will not even be able to go. In a way that is ok with me, but it would be nice to go for a few minutes, but it all depends on if I have a car that night or I need to get a ride from work.
Here's a hint: If you live in the northern part of the US and there is snow: never depend on 4 wheel drive to get you out of anything because it doesn't seem to work that way. I have been stuck in that same snowbank about 5 times this year. My lead foot is getting to me and I have taken a lot of grief from co-workers about it. But now to top it all off...My gas line is frozen now. So I need to put some stuff in it so that it will thaw out. Maybe by the end of the week I will have my vehicle back. I actually miss it now! When I don't have that I drive a mini-van and boy do I feel like a mom! Even though I have NO kids!!!!!
Crazy sometimes. To think that before I ever started blogging I thought that I had the most boring life because it seemed that I did the same thing over and over again...but now I find that I do have a variety of things always going on in life, as I am sure that everyone does!
Well, I think that I am going to conclude here. I have been reading this book for a literary Reading class and it is SOO good! "The Pact" and if you are into a love story that deals with the emotional tolls of suicide and the aftermath to deal with you need to read it! So good.
Happy Thursday to everyone!~
>>>HUGZ<<<

~Joy~

I think that I may have this figured out just a little bit more! *excited face here*
My problem was that I couldn't figure out how to post a new entry after the first one, and now I think that I can! Now maybe I can talk a little bit more! *Never shuts up* What is quiet time anyways? lol

But I purty positive that this is the last for the night! Shower, Read, and off to bed! Sounds like a plan to me...
Take care and talk to you later...
~Joy~

Hi~
Well, I am trying this out to see what I can do on here! I have been blogging on MSN now for about a year, but in the last month or two it has been very slow or unresponsive. I started blogging because I can just ramble and write on here, and then see what kind of responses that I can get out of what I think! I have met many nice people on MSN and I hope that once I get this one up and going that they will read this one also. I love to read what other people think and what they want to be heard!
But to introduce myself...My name is Joy. I am from North Dakota. I like to be with friends, family, work out in the gym, play volleyball, watch a good game of Hockey, and play in the snow! I am always trying to stay busy with doing something. I have a half-sister (but we don't use that term at all) who is 14. She plays Hockey and Volleyball. So, I love to go and watch her team play their games when I can. It can tend to be hard sometimes because of my work schedule and her games usually overlap, but I have went to a few games this year. They can be exciting! Imagine a bunch of teenage girls out on that Hockey rink all going after the same thing!
But I think that I will leave right now at that! I wish you all the best and I will be back in a few days with more intros and news! Until then Good Day from...
~Joy~